Sunday, 28 February 2010
I've hardly slept yet I feel so wide awake. I was sat up with D until about 330am and for some reason was wide awake again at 7am. Probably something to do with living in a turret and it pouring with rain - the angles of the roof make for an interesting soundtrack - one that I find impossible to sleep through - scratch that - I find it pretty much impossible to sleep through anything but um silence!
I wanted to explore today - borrow D's camera and get some photographs around Covent Garden - I meant to do that when Marion came down - but I always end up having such a nice time I forget to take the snap shots.
Instead I lit some candles and got the old oil burning setting the scene for a nice warm glow in the house - when it's thundering down with rain outside it's always nice to be curled up by an open fire - failing that - a candle flame and some nice scents. It's still grizzly outside so I think todays exploration is off.
Instead I read a little more of the Goddess Experience - it's kindof weird (in a good way) - when I wrote about it on this here blog I had read all of 40 pages - but I knew it was going to be cooool. I knew it was going to be 'right up my street'. I was even inspired enough to get a notepad and start my own little journal of happy - my aim is just to get a book bursting with happy at the end - well, to be continued ay a book like that should never end - kindof my DIY FAKE GLAMOUROUS LIFE......or something. I had been writing about my lovely bath and the rose and berry scent infusion and was thinking about how I should really start to find the time to do more writing, I've been wanting to do a proper piece on Vivienne Westwood and Tim Burton for example, but time just hasn't been a friend of mine and as this blog has been suffering a little, my twitter account quite bone idle - blah blah blah but time just schwooshes past - but I grabbed onto some and let it take me for a ride - I ended up not doing anything I had planned but having a lovely evening. This morning I continued to read 'the book' and what do I read about but rose scents for the bath - Vivienne Westwood and time issues.....hmmm could be a casper the friendly ghost moment (ie spooky) or just goes to show there are other like minded people out there - and quite a few of them I think - woo hoo.
And I have just realised I am so girly I even eat pink apples.
Saturday, 27 February 2010
Making people smile and heck when I make them laugh it postively makes me giddy
Friday, 26 February 2010
So I've been reading again.
And I am so kind I will share my discoveries.
The first one I mentioned before but now I have read it. Girl Power The Nineties Revolution in Music by Melissa Meltzer. This covers the whole Riot Grrrlm, foxcore, girl power music phenomenon. I was a bit of a foxcore fan - the phrase was made up by Thurston Moore but it was taken by the press and all rolled up into something pretty ugly that was just about loud angry lesbians. If this is all any of this meant to you then you missed out on a whole heap. Any woman with a voice is branded a feminist like it's a bad thing but we all know that the real true meaning to feminism is just women wanting to be valid human beings - and who on earth would want to say that they are not. Everyone is entitled to a voice end of. This era brought about some really good things but in typical fashion the media tried to shove too much into this box and make it mean too little. A lot of the bands featured were a catalogue to my youth - I was the red lipsticked plastic barrettes girl....but in an adult way - at 5' 10" I can't pretend to be a little girl even if I wanted to - which I never have - that is something I do not understand.
I thought I knew it all about foxcore etc but even I learnt a few things along the way. I learnt a lot more about how influential the Spice Girls have been - to me they were a bunch of girls with not much talent letting people have a bit of fun. Some disturbing facts come through the book - such as padded bras for 6 year olds - yeah thankfully enough people realised what a dumb f--k idea this was and removed them from sale. Tesco's launched a toy pole dancing set for small children including a garter belt and toy money to put in it. Like seriously? It's not even a funny joke but when you realise it's true - well people should be sacked over such huge errors of judgement. The whole book is well written - it's under 200 pages so you can digest the information quickly and research the bits you are really interested in more thoroughly in your own time.
The next find is by Gisele Scanlan author of the Goddess Experience - I got the Goddess Guide first. It is full of a cut and paste doodling kind of style with hints and tips on all things that a girl could be or probably is interested in from shopping to afternoon tea to recipes to hints and tips about household things - the modern girls handy hints book with a twist. It's a lovely book to flick through and to find lovely places slightly off the beaten track - weird and wonderful but useful information laid out in a beautiful way. It's the sort of book my best friend and me would write if we were younger, richer and free to travel.
Tuesday, 23 February 2010
Leigh Lezark - front row here there and everywhere - she has great style and such lovely hair - I could hate her but I don't.
This new trend for the nude look - yuk in a word. Why would you go out of your way to make your clothes look bland and almost not there? Go figure?
And Naomi Campbell is proving that she has put that little temper tantrum episodes behind her and has befriended Mrs Brown (the woman behind the UKs prime minister) she is behind the White Ribbon Alliance which is all about throwing dinner parties for charities - which is not a bad way to raise money at all - go check it out!
I have booked my holiday from work and I don't know where to go or what I can afford to do yet but I found this little Grade II castle and I SO have to go - how cute would it be!??!! Actually I think I just want it as my house full stop.
(incidentally Marie Claire have not sent me the bag I won...yet :o(
Check out her wares (so to speak) if you haven't done so before - Luella Bartley not too quirky it's not use able but not plain jane either.
ANASTASIA RADEVICH £240 it's not love but it's special.
Military gear for girls oh yawn yawn yawn - what a boring fashion spread - at least mix it with some florals and some funky accessories please!
I love this dress - I want to be able to wear it with some nice dolly girl make up I don't know if it would suit my complexion but I'd make it work somehow.
I thank you and good night.
There are those few circumstances - you know - hurt my loved ones and hell I am going to want to see you fall but I mean in day to day life? What a miserable existance to live.
Sunday, 21 February 2010
(the rest of my hair has been pulled up I wasn't that brave this time I am still trying to grow my hair - slowly but surely)
I am going to go and watch Up! again for the final leg of my weekend. Why oh why do two days off work pass like 3 hours of work time. It seems most unfair. Speaking of unfair - why is it always the case that just as you think your perfectly applied nail polish has dried you totally mess up one nail?
Think of it this way though. You have been diagnosed with cancer and your whole world has just come crashing down around you. One of the things, especially women seem to get scared about is losing their hair. I can only imagine that on top of all that you would have to deal with - that when you look in the mirror and don't even see yourself looking back at you - it's got to be a very tough thing.
This is why I love this new initiative called Look Good....Feel Better. Cosmetic companies are donating products and make up artists are donating their time to hold workshops for cancer suffers. To show them how to tie a head scarf in a flattering manner, to talk about wigs, to go through how to apply make up to make you look like you again. Such a simple concept but I have a feeling it will make a huge impact on the people attending. For a few hours those people can have fun and feel feminine again.
Please visit www.lookgoodfeelbettter.co.uk for further details of how you can help or how you can attend.
Friday, 19 February 2010
I went for my post-op' check up yesterday - and finally things have worked. I still have a long way to go to getting my health back but the big thing is that now it's a forward process not one step forward 20 steps back as it has been for the last 4 years.
My feet are doing a little tap dance whilst I stand. My face is on full beam behind the scenes.
I feel a bit scared to celebrate but given time I know that will pass.
I hope to never take things for granted again - to know how it messed with my mind and body - well I think only I will ever fully understand the depth of that one.
Thank you again to those that have been there and stuck by me.
And those that haven't - your loss :op
All in all - this is a positive time.
And hopefully an up lifting message for others too.
Wednesday, 17 February 2010
The best Audrey wall hanging I have seen for a while - it made me laugh - I haven't got it......yet!
China Town - Chinese New Year - lots of pretty lanterns and some great drums going which sadly you can't hear from the photograph - if I knew a way....yeah yeah there is video but.........
This roof in the British Museum is quite something but it is so huge it kindof makes you feel like you are going to fall over.
The next best cake shop Pat Val an old haunt of mine - Patisserie Valerie.
I still haven't managed to find a distance learning course in Native American Studies but I have been meeting some interesting people during my search so it was nice timing that this exhibition was on.