SO....after 4 years and with a little bit of touching wood in mind, I have been declared a free woman.
I went for my post-op' check up yesterday - and finally things have worked. I still have a long way to go to getting my health back but the big thing is that now it's a forward process not one step forward 20 steps back as it has been for the last 4 years.
My feet are doing a little tap dance whilst I stand. My face is on full beam behind the scenes.
I feel a bit scared to celebrate but given time I know that will pass.
I hope to never take things for granted again - to know how it messed with my mind and body - well I think only I will ever fully understand the depth of that one.
Thank you again to those that have been there and stuck by me.
And those that haven't - your loss :op
All in all - this is a positive time.
And hopefully an up lifting message for others too.